The Simple Things

A Few Things Learned on JetBlue Airlines

1) Their potato chips are blue. THEY. ARE. BLUE.

2) It’s fun to take pictures of the topography as you pass each state. Notice the differences!

Los Angeles, LAX

Utah

Colorado

New Jersey

Man. This has been a journey. I wonder what it’s like to be a flight attendant.

Going Home

My car was so packed that my five seater car quickly became a one seater.

As I rounded the corner to where the gas station was, i realized that it was a little too quiet, so i popped in my favorite cd. It all seemed a little too casual until i came upon the fork. You know, the one that either led to the interstate or to Clarkesville.

And as i chose the former, a pang shot through my heart because i realized that our random trips to Clarkesville were no more.

I miss you guys.

Two Thoughts

1) Good-byes are a bitter-sweet thing. Some more bitter than sweet.

2) I’m waiting.

I don’t like taking responsibility for my own stupidity.

I have a lot to say

So I will say it in increments. As to not overwhelm my multitude of readers (chortle).

I’m going to miss my family. This thought has been pricking the back of my mind for the past year and a half, and I think it has finally hit me.

In a few weeks, I’m going to be living in the Dominican Republic for a month and half, and in that month and a half, I will not see my family. I know. It doesn’t seem like a very long time, but it just reminds me that if, in fact, the Good Lord is really calling me to be an international worker, I might not see them for years at a time.

OR if we’re doing this the old school way, ever. 

That sucks. 

I won’t get to see my bouncy two-year old brother grow up. I won’t get to see my beautiful little sister go to prom. 

In the end,

To fear the Lord means to be willing to sacrifice everything for the sake of His ministry, to leave everything behind, to carry your cross. 

I have mixed feelings.

:) I love you always.

New Year’s Resolutions

Remember those? How are you doing with them? I’d like to know.

It is now April 17, 2012, and May is just around the corner. I remember at the beginning of this year I had only two goals in mind: 

• To not buy clothes for the entire year
• To learn how to FEAR God

First of all, the whole not buying clothes thing? It’s really opened my eyes to see how materialistic we are in America. It’s opened my eyes to the wealth, access, and freedom we have here. I mean, honestly, how many graphic t-shirts, cardigans, jeans does one really need? I know I might be stepping on a lot of toes here, even mine, since I love shopping and all things fashion dearly, but did you know that we hold 31% of the world’s wealth? One country versus the world. I might be preaching to the choir, but maybe if all of us, especially those of us who are called to live above reproach, would just give up a few of these luxuries, all of those orphans and widows Jesus talks about would be taken care of. I hope you don’t see this as condemning, but as a challenge to re-evaluate a few things. I guess you can tell that I’ve really been taking to my sustainable development class.

Ok. Off the soap box.

Second, I think I’m starting to get a tiny picture of how Isaiah felt when he fell before God, his self-esteem in shreds, crying “woe to me!” Or how Job felt when God lectured him for asking a few questions. I am so weak and tiny compared to God. How dare I ever think that anything good that happens is because of me? How dare I question the God who made time and space, who keeps the universe from whirling into chaos? But as small, foolish, and inadequate as I am, he still chooses to call me (you) his daughter, a co-heir WITH CHRIST, the author of life! That is enormous. And that, friends, is unfathomable to me. 

Anyway, it’s 5:38 AM, and I’m going to continue my all-nighter now. I really hope you all have a FANTASTIC day. Love you :)

Who Just Booked a Ticket to San Diego?

Me. Yeah. I did.

The Lord is SO GOOD TO ME!!! I just can’t stand it.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your path straight” Proverbs 3:5-6

I have been blessed by SO many people these past few days. 

::sigh::

Jesus, Jesus, Precious Jesus.

So here’s what’s been going on. I’m supposed to go to the Dominican Republic this summer. I’m supposed to be raising funds. I’m supposed to be writing support letters. I’m supposed to be trusting in God to bring all these things together.

I’m supposed to be. But I’m not. 

Why is it that I have trust issues with my Creator? Have I not read about how Jesus provided Peter with money to pay his taxes? Or about how God sent manna and quail for his people? OR about how Jesus fed 5,000+ with a few loaves of bread and fish?

Yet as I sat there, trying to figure out how to start my prayer/support letters, my heart did not let the pen in my hand move out of fear of falling, and failing. So I stopped momentarily, just enough time for this old hymn to creep into my head. Louisa writes “Just to rest upon His promise, and to know ‘Thus saith the Lord’”.

“Jesus, Jesus, how I trust Him!

How I’ve proved Him o’er and o’er; 

Jesus, Jesus, Precious Jesus!

Oh, for grace to trust Him more” -Louisa M.R. Stead

 He declared light. There was light. If He says it will happen, it will happen.

There aren’t many pros to not trusting in God, except that I can watch him prove me wrong over and over again.

And I can only pray for grace to trust in Him more. I love that God chooses to speak to me through song. 

Santiago, I’m claiming you as my destination!